Can you hear me now?

Damn. I'm exhausted. I'm cranky. I'm paranoid. I feel like people are avoiding me. I can't take these pills anymore. I'd rather be lucid and in pain than bumping into the walls. I went out today. I wanted to go to the library to pick up a book I had on order. I had to pull over halfway there to make sure I was in the right gear. Seriously. I had to pull the manual out of the glove box and check. I've only been driving that truck for nine years or so. Then I nearly fell asleep on the way and got rather nauseated in the library. I can barely keep my eyes open now but I wanted to address my feelings. I don't know if I've said things to drive anyone away. I hope I didn't.